Full-Blown Agony: My Fight With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Deborah Cline
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